Friday, January 22, 2010

The General Mood Around Here

Yeah, I know it hasn't been the same. Last week I was taken aback by an anonymous commenter who said....

remember when you used to write about stuff and not just post advertisements? those were the days. i miss your writing!!!

Advertisement issue aside (let it be known that the GDA posts are simply me sharing good deals with my friends- I make absolutely nothing off them, except for a very small percentage off of Amazon click-thrus), I started thinking about it, and yes, I agree I haven't been "writing" much. And I miss my writing too!

I am sure you know that P started K this past fall, and he hasn't settled in very well. His behavior has not been stellar, and his poor teacher, who is a family friend, has tried everything she can think of to motivate him to behave better, but we just aren't getting there. He seems intent on being the "class clown" which may be great for a career choice later in life, but it is distracting to the other kids and is causing disruptions in class.

To complicate matters, he was officially diagnosed with a Sensory Processing Disorder, like WC, but his issues are a bit different than hers. Some of his issues cause challenges in class. He's pretty much unable to sit still and keep his hands to himself due to him being a sensory seeker. We started OT visits and listening therapy at home around Thanksgiving, and it's been a rocky road for me. I wonder sometimes (most of the time actually) what I did wrong for both my kids to have these issues.......

I'm super-tired of living in a war zone and waiting for little bombs to drop. I've always suffered from some level of anxiety, but never felt the need to do something about it until we started dealing with WC's issues and now it just seems MORE complicated. I think the Lexapro helps, but I'm tired, I'm fat, and I cut my bangs a little too short last week.

But I'll make it through, that I know. So I hope you can be patient with me while I wait for things to settle and hopefully return to normal.

18 comments:

Unknown said...

First of all a big hug to you. I am also tired, fat and my bangs are too short. I hate them. I think that might make us automatic friends.

Cornelia said...

(((HUGS))) to you, P, WC and your husband. You will get through it!
And I think most of us have cut our bangs too short before:-)

Marni said...

Ah, Sasha. I know I haven't seen or talked to you in like 15 years when we were the short girls on the end, but I still think of us as great friends. I wish I could give you a big hug! If you're still the same girl you were in high school, I'm sure you have done everything right! :)

Elaine's Semi-Homemade Life said...

Sasha..... YOU are an amazing mother.... I don't know how you do it, with a big job, all your volunteering.... those kids are so loved and they know that. And you still make time for your girlfriends, your running... AND you come here and pick all of us up on days when we feel like crap. I think you're an amazing girl and I'm so glad to have gotten close to you...
If there's anything I can do to help, I'm here... if you have time this wkend, we should do that catch up phone call we've been talking about. And if not, don't stress... we'll do it when we have time. :)
Love and hugs and... get yourself to a happy hour, girly! e

Erin said...

As much as it stinks, everyone has their issues that they deal with and battle! Hang in there!!! You're a GREAT mom!

P.S. I saw you this week and your hair looked great!

razberiswrl said...

Mean people suck, Sasha. Ignore them. I'm sorry you're having a rough go of it right now.

Liz said...

You are a super-great mom and there is NOTHING you did to cause any of this. You WILL get through this.

Ann said...

Oh you poor thing. Hang in there! I am tired and fat and contemplate cutting bangs everyday to hide my forehead wrinkles!

s.lange said...

I am a fat, tired mom to four adorable brats - one who has ADHD in a BAD way and another who seems like he is headed in that direction...I ended up pulling him out and homeschooling him for a year and I am SO NOT that person - but I couldn't watch him struggle anymore...we got "centered" and found a better place for him this year, but it has been tough. I keep saying, "he is a good kid" to anyone who will listen, and the ones who matter, do - they do listen and they support us...so keep your head up and like every other stage in our lives, this one will pass and you will be the better for the struggle.

Special K said...

*You are 60 lbs skinnier than me
*Sorry about the bangs. Watch some cool urban movies and wear them proundly? Or wear headbands?
*Honey, I love all your posts. Nailpolish, food, sensory and kids-related.
*Enoy your life, blog when you want, how you want. If you want his as a memory for your kids, then be real, it's really the best. If you want it as a release of stress, then be real. If you need a hug about sensory issues, mention it and you'll find yourself an audience of them. Logan had them and we've grown out of them. Thank the heavens. Hugs to you for still being in that phase.:)

C. Beth said...

Love you, Sasha. :)

Hartley said...

Hi,

I just found your blog today and I can relate (to everything--even the lexapro and fat thing!!).

I too have a son with SPD, and he is challenged at school (he was the class clown as well--VERY common for SPD kiddos and even Aspergers--which my son has as well).

Parenting special kiddos is a rough and rocky road. I can promise you it will get better, as kids get older. Know you are not alone, and although it appears you have a GREAT group of supportive friends--if you ever want to talk with someone that has been there, please email me anytime!

I'll check back!
Hartley
Author of This is Gabriel Making Sense of School (April 2010)
www.hartleysboys.com
Twitter: ParentingSPD

Leticia- Tech Savvy Mama said...

I hate it when people post criticism anonymously. It is cowardly and hurtful rather than being constructive. I'll always read you no matter what since I love your GDAs and makeup finds.

When you feel like writing about your family again, I'll still be here along with your many other faithful readers. Take care of your lovely family and in the meantime I'm sending huge virtual hugs!

Browns said...

Sasha I am sending a big hug your way. Life throws us so many crazy challanges and sometimes they just make us want to climb into bed and cover our head with the sheets (or at least that's what I want to do). You are an amazing mom and a lovely lady...you are doing the best you can for your babies...just remember this to will pass. I will be praying for you and know that you are not alone.

Kate said...

Sasha - If you weren't a great mother you wouldn't be worried what you had "done". Even though your head knows it isn't anything you did, your heart will continue to tell you another story. Parenting is a war zone - one that continues to test us and try us even when the kids are past 18. Keep your head high and continue to do the amazing job you have been doing! Things will improve!! Much love sweets!

Rachael said...

Oh, no! Not the bangs too!

Hugs.

MDO said...

Miss you girlie - hang in there. I agree with TechSavvyMama that anonymous posters are mean and cowardly, even if their comment could have been constructive. You know my boy's SPD issues - call me if you want to talk. We need a girls night soon!

Sasha said...

You guys are the SWEETEST. Thanks for all your wonderful comments. Love to you all!