Monday, September 27, 2010

Weekend Update

The Politician played some soccer,

The Wild Child got her face painted at a Fall Festival,

and I did something quite a bit out of my comfort zone: led our Sunday school class.

We are currently using Michelle Nichol's book Sink or Walk on Water and it has been speaking to me, quite deeply.

If you've been a Sasha Says reader for any length of time, you have most likely read about my anxiety (it's a reoccurring theme around here). I've been struggling a bit more than usual lately, feeling guilty about my worrying and my internal struggles, which has done nothing but add another layer of anxiety to my load. I want to be different, I truly do, but I can't seem to find that switch, the one I can flip to shift the direction of thoughts in my brain.

But oh, Michelle spoke to me yesterday when I was leading from Day 1 of Week 4. On page 77, Michelle wrote,

"I do not know about you, but I've seldom been cheerful or glad during my trials. These verses do not tell us to be cheerful about our trials; they say be cheerful during our trials."

I realized yesterday that I need to separate out the feelings: I am allowed to spend some time thinking about the things that cause me anxiety, but I need to spend more time being grateful and having a heart that rejoices.

My verse for the week: 1 Peter 5:7: "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you."


C. Beth said...

What a great realization! I love those epiphanies that make life more joyful. Praying for more peace and joy for you this week!

just ask beth said...

your children are beautiful...

Cornelia said...

I like this alot! I"m going to remember this.

Matt & Carrie said...

Thanks for sharing the message. I think we all feel anxiety at times and feeling joy and praise through it is not a natural thing for humans. Thanks for the verse of inspiration!

Special K said...

That's awesome. I feel the same way. Like hating my job. And feeling a sense of guilt if I do find joy in it or it doesn't annoy the heck out of me for awhile. One half of my brain is saying "don't settle for this job, it makes you unhappy" and the other half says "It's just a job. Find joy in it anyway, and find fulfillment in your home life." Thanks for sharing!